Mommy's (what Mal Called Me) Heart talk:It has been just a little over a year since Mal passed.Life has changed and now it is filled with grief, thoughts, memories, Little boys filling our home,(Gregson & Sam)I find myself at times going with the flow of every day then something stops me: a song, words, pictures, do you remember, memories, doing homework, shower times, planning for breaks, vacations, and summers and weekends.I find myself crying a lot compared to once every few months ( i hate crying) to several times a week. Or laughing at Mal you are orchestrating things still and laughing at the things she would do or cause me to do.Dinner time is usually a discussion about Mal with gregson, Sam, Garv and I and sometimes Aspen and Madix. They tend to avoid the discussions.I find myself disfusing my oils in the house that help all of us with taking the edge off. At time have to retreat to my room and sit in silence for a while,At times amidst all the hustle and bustle it still is lonely. I love my daughter, a best friend and I miss all the 1,000’s of phone calls all day. And hearing her say I love you mommy. I have accepted her death and I want to help others who have and are going through what I have been through and going through, I want to help the families the children to give them hope, that they know hey I'm not alone I'm breaking the silence. Drug addiction and overdose is not talked about hardly at all and people need to be aware that there is a crisis and that there are those here who care and want to love you and your family. CompassionatelyLes
