I'm so sorry you are dealing with childhood trauma.
I know it sucks and hurts you feel like your nobody, no one cares, no one understands. Oh but there are those who do. I have been through my share of childhood trauma. My dad had a lot of mental issues. In and out of mental hospitals, living on pins and needles not knowing what mood he would be in that day. My mom became disabled at 40, I was molested by my grandfather till age 9, I felt abandoned and ugly and not important. Yes I do have some residual effects from my trauma and I'm working through it. But the majority of this has been forgiven and I have moved on. I'm not a victim, I'm a victor. I'm working on my self pity at times, and I'm learning to love myself and take time for myself and put me first not be that people's pleaser all the time. I can say no and not second guess it all the time. If it were not for God I would not be where I Am today. I hate staying the way I’m and want to grow and change and be able to help others along the way too. If I can do it, so can You!!!Love Malsmom
