Welcome to Malories Place Blog Malorie was a vibrant and caring lady. She became an addict to pills, when she was 17. She moved onto cocaine, other drugs, and then meth While her active addiction there was pain, tears, anguish, begging God, feeling I had failed her and everyone else, and embarrassment. We lost the Malorie that we knew as vibrant and fun loving and funny. We gained a depressed, lying, manipulative woman. Who was tormented by her addiction. You could not trust her. Things were being stolen to pay for the drugs. We had to lock up Meds, Jewelry, checks, money, anything valuable and things that were easy to pawn. This went on for 15 years. For the longest time I would believe what she told me and not what others were telling me. I had blinders on and did not want to see the truth. One day I realized enough was enough: the physical torment I was going through, the stomach aches, the depression and the wanting to curl up in bed not face the world became a reality for me. For a while I wallowed in this state then I realized that this is not how I want to live. So I kept praying to God asking him to help me and I started to let my worship be the center of my life and it pulled me up and out of my pit. I realized it was not my fault I had raised Mal up in church and she knew the word. So I gave it over to God daily. It seemed like every few minutes I went to him. God got me through this with Worship, prayers and promising that he had her in his hands and was in control. Now for the family it sucked everyone went with her down that hole. Her Brothers were affected, her children were affected, her nieces and nephews were affected and friends. They would distance themselves from her. It would hurt me to hear if Mal is going to be there and I would say yes. Her children were taken from her. They live with us now. Her daughter had to seek help and get Therapy. Her son is angry and her youngest is working through the difficulties he has had to endure. She became the elephant in the room. I would hurt because she was being displayed. They all loved her but had a hard time being around her. She was sober for 3 years and 2 of her brothers and she became close. They had her back and were proud of what she was doing with her life. Her older brother did not live here so they just saw each other once a year. She said "We're not meant to fight this battle alone" Well it has been 14 months since Malorie's death. The grief is there and we have peace knowing she is in heaven and is free and she is not being tormented daily. There is a relief knowing she is safe and not out there and not knowing what has happened or what shoe is going to fall next. How we are dealing with grief. Mom: (me) I pray, I talk about it, I cry but not depressed crying a good cry of missing her, I live depressed free, I live for her children and my grandchildren, & liveI help others, so there is NOT ONE MORE!!!! Aspen cries and will talk about her at times. She was building a relationship back with mom again. Madix does not talk about it Gregson: Mom is the topic of the meal conversation at dinner. Memories, & I wish… Mal is talked about daily in our home. Sometimes there are tears,or laughing. Dad he tears up at times, comforts me and he is quiet at times. When we have family get-togethers there is a place set for Malorie and we talk about the memories and laugh and cry. This is how we are handling the passing of Malorie. “Sometimes the strongest among us are the ones who smile through silent pain, cry behind closed doors, and fight battles nobody knows about.” – Unknown (Source: Quotena.com) This is why Malorie’s Place was born to help others and we will be the voice crying out to say you are not alone. We got You!!! Not one more!!!! You are not alone!!! At Malorie’s Place, we believe that no one should face life’s challenges alone. Together, we illuminate the path toward healing and resilience. How to contact Malorie’s Place: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/leslie.hulbert.96 Web page: https://maloriesplace.org/ Malorie’s Place Support Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/1505206463361110 Malorie’s Place: https://www.facebook.com/groups/1129727278479715 Email:
How we are thriving through the trauma of our Malorie’s addiction and Stress!
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